Heart burn and fucked up dreams

Once again I wake up to it... That is 3 days in a row to heart burn and weird dreams.

Today Is a friend of mines birthday and were going blowing, I went to it last year as well so this was the  frame work for last nights dream.

(in my dream)

I got there a little early so as I am waiting for the others to arrive I bump into some friends (Chaka & Chris), 2 of them from spits and were walking along but I'm on the phone to fluff, were talking about "us" then we meet at (once again) at my Forster mums house, shes is wearing the outfit from my last blog and were being very close, kissing and cuddling as I am telling her my feeling at the moment - telling her that I am missing  her and how we could fix the issues that we have... She does not seem to want to go there but is kissing me all the same.

I wake up inside my dream to find 2 other friends (Dan and Faith) sleeping on the other side of the room I shared with my brother at my 2nd mothers wondering why they are there... Fluff is gone and im back waiting for the part to begin... Too cars roll up with the bday girl (Michelle) and many others including ThePeace and others, for some reason Michelle is driving a black Taxi. ThePeace pulls me aside for a chat - This chat does not happen as my alarm goes off and I am back in the real world with Jinx on my lapy purring for some attention.

Are these dreams telling me something? Am I ment to work all this out or is it just my mind fucking with my head - I believe all dreams mean something, but there never easy to work out as they are all about symbolism   

The Ex Girlfriend Dream

Last night Ihad a really fucked up-dream...

It was set over many weeks with lots of different events happening...

1st there was the small memories, All the things that she had done since she split with me, going on a trip around Europe and seeing the postcards and things she had picked up.

Then comes the new boyfriend, An image of the too them on the side of a hill, Something we would have done if we would have ever got outa fucking London and seen the fracking world a little more....

Then I am in a shop with a friend and I over here a conversation. Its about there sons new GF and that they believe that shes is still in love with her ex, The names given are not that different from there real life names and my ears are picking up all the details. The family coming together - the cost of this and that and Iput it together that the wedding is on fot  them.

My heart is crushed but this information but at the same time I dont want to make up and just want revenge and to spit these to people up. I find a crow inside the Mothers room, I guild it out of the window. I find images on the phone and see that there are doing all the things that couples are doing.

The subconscious is a fucked up thing when you think about it, What on earth does all that mean, Hunting through an old shop with TheSex finding PSP games for only £100. Looking for a Cab with LittleIan and ChrisNut... A cab office that also sells mirrors. A tour around the catacombs of Paris.

This is starting to turn into a dream blog but its the best way I can put this down in text before I lose all of the details... maybe one day I can put the peaces all together and work out whats happening... For now I just seem like a crazy person lol