Small steps!

Today I did a little better then yesterday with the smoking, Well only  little but I did not smoke till 1am so an hour later then last night.

But in turn I did not smoke a hole pack before bed (Well I smoked an extra fag before bed to kill the packet) Tonight I am getting into bed with 5 fags still in the box, Trouble is do I toss them or do I prove something to myself and not have any fags tomorrow even though I have them in the house? This will be a test for me but if i can do this then it shows something to myself... that being I can have them around me and still not smoke them.

I always liked a challenge so this could be fun!  

Kicking the habbit

Today I went over 12 hours without having a fag...

I wanted to see how long i could go without smoking and I was doing pretty well, I got till nearly 1am without a smoke... The funny thing is now I feel like I should have just pushed myself harder and tried going a full day without anything...

I had a fag left in a pack i should have tossed yesterday and I rolled it  up, after that fag I felt myself needing one. It was not a good thing to do and i shall try it again tomorrow. To see if I can, funny thing is I know i can, I quit for a week after new years and went to a party - Temtatsion is a bitch and I need to take myself out from it.

My Rota at work is now changing so I will not be going to spits for some time so that is one place I will not have, my lack of funds is also pushing me to work more and with any luck, smoke less!

Lest see how this week goes and we will find out just how strong I really am