Walk In The Woods (20130206)

I wanted to change my sleeping habbits... Me being me had to do something extream.

I finished work one night and just did not sleep - Yea a great idea.

Crows are CIA agents

Anyways... My idea was to go off to the woods near my Dads place so I headed up there while the sun was still sleeping and about 3 hours later and one set of fucked boots, I ended up with some ok images... Not my best work but I still like them 

Trains go in lines 

You can see the full set of images on this LINK.

DLR Photowalk (20130130)

About a week ago me and a friend went on a little walk, The idea was to shoot the tunnels around the DLR startions but it kinda turned into a city shoot... some nice images using long shutters and some cool tricks and tips I taught to my willing student 

  

You can see the full set on this LINK.

Photo Blog Updates

ok its been a little crazy in my life at the mo but I have been shooting and here are some up coming blogs to give you an idea and links of that I have been up to but here is a preview of some of the images

Told you I have been BUSY lol

Alternative Art FB Page

The other day I was looking around facebook and I came across a page... 

Now I dont tend to share them that much but this one is really cool, Its a page about and named "Alternative Art" and it is well worth a check out .



You can find it on this LINK.

Dead is not Dead

ok now im pissed off...

 I through I was going through the E-Lites refills a little to fast - So I got a new new one (The fag not the refill) and I have been using it the last few days... Anyways The battery started to die so i put it on charge and as I know have 2 i poped the refill onto my older E-Lite fag.

Noe I through this was dead as i was not getting anything from it and get what... yep a full mouth of smoke and i coughed like I smoked 40 a day - lol

So the last few refills I got still had life left in them so that was money spunked down the drawn when I really dont have the money to waste 

Lost in Lightroom

The other week I tried to back up last years catalog for my images... 

2012 was the 1st FULL year that I had my canon camera. I only shoot using RAW (The highest quitily me camera can take) but the trouble with shooting RAW is that each image is around 25mb. When you take it into acount that I should around 100 images when im on one of my walks, about 400 when I cover an event and somewhere in the 700 mark for a shoot - It all mounts up.

I tend to wait till I'm back home before I delete any images and sometimes I only delete the ones that are really bad. I tend keep the ones that just dont do it for me. Thinking that they would do it later.

My trouble today is this... There are 2 people I have the most pics of, One is my cat Jinx and the other is Fluff... I am having no trouble deleting images of my cat but when it comes to fluff I just cant seem to do it. There are alot that will never see the light of day and she herself would want me to delete them. But now I'm here doing it, I find it hard. I might never get to get that shot again, That silly just woke up in the morning with hair all over the place - that small smile in a coffee shop and most of all that look in her eyes when she was looking at me through the camera.

I guess I should just get over this... or just buy A bigger hard drive but I just felt I wanted to share my feelings on this, I want to have the chance to shoot her again in all the different moments that have nothing to do with photography. Iwill work this out I guess

Lost in the Woods

With enough words and friends telling you something... can you believe a lie? I mean can you really start to believe in something that seems so real but is only a massive head fuck?

A friend of mine once pushes her girlfriend into the arms of another man to find out how he felt about her, to see if he really loved her... At the time i though this was crazy, Now I'm not so sure

Today I was having a chat with someone and the image of them with someone else made me feel ill. Did i really trick myself into feeling like i was not in love, did I lie to myself within my own un-happiness?

With me having a lot of my own space of late I have been thinking a lot about myself, where I am in my life and what I want from it. When I really think hard about it I know where I want to be but is that the right place. Am I thinking about the wrong thing or just looking back at my mistakes.

I guess I will find out and one way or the other pay for my mistakes and the things I have done wrong... But in the end, Will I be happy?

Small steps!

Today I did a little better then yesterday with the smoking, Well only  little but I did not smoke till 1am so an hour later then last night.

But in turn I did not smoke a hole pack before bed (Well I smoked an extra fag before bed to kill the packet) Tonight I am getting into bed with 5 fags still in the box, Trouble is do I toss them or do I prove something to myself and not have any fags tomorrow even though I have them in the house? This will be a test for me but if i can do this then it shows something to myself... that being I can have them around me and still not smoke them.

I always liked a challenge so this could be fun!  

A New Me?

Of late I have been thinking alot (I know shocker) 

I feel like I have lost myself in all the fun Ii have been having of late, Losing who I was and becoming something that I am not. I have been looking over old pics and videos from my past... I became the person I wanted to be and now i find myself lost in my own soul.

This needs to change - I was a well rounded person before, people liked me and had respect for me. Now I find myself being looked at differently from the people I trusted and loved. The people that have know me for a long time talk different to me and I am left to wounder what it is.

Am I that different? Have I changed so much? I dont know but I dont like it... Who am I again, what do i stand for and what should I aim for to get something back that I think I might have lost.

This year was meant for fun but fun not taken at the expense of others - that was the rule and I think in that I have taken something from myself - This is my new goal for this year... To make myself better To push myself in all fields and to become the man some used to see me as.

2013 Skinny is going to be a little more through full then 2012 skinny and that going to start with taking better care of myself

Kicking the habbit

Today I went over 12 hours without having a fag...

I wanted to see how long i could go without smoking and I was doing pretty well, I got till nearly 1am without a smoke... The funny thing is now I feel like I should have just pushed myself harder and tried going a full day without anything...

I had a fag left in a pack i should have tossed yesterday and I rolled it  up, after that fag I felt myself needing one. It was not a good thing to do and i shall try it again tomorrow. To see if I can, funny thing is I know i can, I quit for a week after new years and went to a party - Temtatsion is a bitch and I need to take myself out from it.

My Rota at work is now changing so I will not be going to spits for some time so that is one place I will not have, my lack of funds is also pushing me to work more and with any luck, smoke less!

Lest see how this week goes and we will find out just how strong I really am