What If?

I just spent the last 20mins in the shower...

With water running down my back and bad things going through my heads.

What if I disappoint her, what if I am not good, what if I let her down and make her hate me... The worst kind of cold feet! I dont like this feeling, It reminds me of our 1st date where I took a little something extra just in case I did not live up to my rave personality. On that night I did not need anything and the evening went would a hitch (and lead to some of the best years of my life)

One way or the other I will be seeing her face again in a matter of hours and I do long for it.

This is going to be an interesting day - head fuck or not!

Wish me luck