SPACE PHOTOGRAPHY

This might shock you (but something tells me it will not) But I do watch a lot of photography videos on YouTube... but I found one tonight that I think is the coolest one so far

Might have something to do with the fact that this combains one of my 1st loves with my biggest as an adult 

SPACE + PHOTOGRAPHY = HAPPY SKINNY

Dam this stuff is so amazing, I would love to shoot something from the I.S.S or just on the edge of space.

To This Day

Yester I came across a video on facebook, A video about bullying and growing up different from the norm - As I had such an up bringing I was really touched and it almost give a tear to my eyes.

I wanna share this to everyone, the bullied how think its hard, to the kid that has to live every day as an up hill battle and to the bully to make them see just what there words can really do to someone!

Maybe this will open some minds, maybe it will support a hurt mind... Just know that love comes from inside and that you can always pick yourself up. It does end and you will be stronger for it!

Be Strong - Be Better - Be You!

Angels with a Voice

A long time ago a friend told me a story. 

She told me that she belived that angels would talk to people to give you a message, no know to them but something they would say or do would pass on a message from up high to make you chose to do or dont do something, And with an open ear and a open heart you will hear the angels.

This weekend I feel that an angel was passing me a message, And I think I know who was giving the message... Thanks L, Think I needed this push ... 

What a difference a day makes

This week has been so fucking stress full that I almost broke down from all the issues and pressers in my life, familys and friends added to my pile and work was getting to me as well but in the mess that became  my mind something happened, a crack in my walls let something since through, something that I have not had in a while and the sun started to shine on my face like it did back in another time of my life.

Life tosses you curve balls and sometimes the light guilds you to think like you have not done before... or in a different way to how you think you should. Something happened to me on friday night that made me look deep in y soul and find something that has been there the whole time but i was blinded by what was happing in my life to see it. A small little fluff ball of feelings I had burred away for a long time. but onceopened there was no stopping it, Fall for that feeling, seeing that smile and hearing that voice. Things clicked into place and my mind heart and soul all lined up to tell me one thing and one thing only. 

Now im smiling at the fact I can see the world again with the happy eyes that I have had and lost, This time of finding me is done, this time of blowing out is done.... I have found what I was looking for and it was here the whole time.

Thank you Y for everything... you really are the yin to my yang

Wedding Stressing

Since my last blog I have been stressing about a wedding shoot I have coming up.

I had sorted borrowing both a long lens and a 2nd body for the weekend, While the night was going and i was planing the last few bits the friend Iwas borrowing the lens from worked out that she is infact leaving to go to the US on the wedding day itself. 

Fuck!

That left me with only a 16-70mm range for the day, As any shooter could tell you 70mm even on a crop body is no where near close enough for shooting a wedding. Yes I could step closer but I dont wanna shoot in the faces of the people getting marred.

I asked on facebook for a friend who has something I could borrow, thankfully another friend has some glass that will give me some more zoom range. It is only an F4 but its better to bump up my ISO then have to stop that close or miss the shoot complety. Its good to have friends sometimes.

All of tonight I have been reading up or watching videos from kelby training or youtube to get some more ideas for this shoot. Trouble with all of this is that its a little bit last minit, giving the real chance I would have at least a month to plan this, meeting with the bride and groom at least once to get the planning down

I am going to pop to the church tomorrow and check out the place but I need to know what times things are going to happen, what groups are going to be shooting and everything else, You wanna plan these things so on the day everyone knows what happening and what time its going to be...

A wedding is slip into differnt parts... The early part of the day should be canded shots of the bride getting ready... on this shoot im told that someone else is getting this set, a real pain as this is the brides day and the main shooter (aka ME) should be following her all day long. I get to cover the guys witch is still good and I am friends of the groom so I must do the best with what I have.

The next stage is like canded shots again, but with a little event photography added in, the wedding itself is shot very much back, zooming in and bounicing around the church to get the shots of the service.

After that its like a portat shoot, getting the groups together, a massive group shot then dropping a few people and then some more and more till its only the bride and groom along... This is somewhere I get a little confused... the bride and groom drive off into the sunset - is this when we do just the new cupple? I dont know this is something that i need to find out within the next week.

This is where doing a pre shoot would really help, doing a pre shoot helps to find both the right angles of the bride and groom but also gives them some idea of what the images on the day will look like.

After this section its really just event photography and this is where I know I shine, I have coverd 100s of events in my time and I know i can get some really cool images.

I know I can do all of the different bits of a wedding shoot and I have one booked up for next year to get ready for, this will be good training but its no where near as planed. I am hoping to get all of this together in the next week or so.

Sorry for the rant but i needed to get some of this off my chest as I have enough on my plant now that i have to deal with

A Crying Rock

Life is really starting to get me down, Everything gets on top of you and you fight to keep it all together.

I have always been a rock for my friends and family, staying strong for everyone else's sake but when your feeling weak and need a hand... who is there for the rock? People offer hands here and there but they have there own shit they need to sort out or to have help with. I always wanna help them before I help myself. They mean more to me then I do to myself.  I dont want to be that burden on my friends even if I am there rock... I dont wanna have to lean on them the same way... Yes its one sided but I just cant work both ways on this.

Everyone has issues, even a rock needs time to cry sometimes and this rock is feeling the presser from everything and everyone. Issues of the heart and the head, issues of family and friends, issues of life and work.

Call this what you want but I need to sort this myself as I can only rely on one thing in this world and thats me! everyone leaves me at some point, my life has showen this to be true and I am the only one that is going to be there every second of every day.

Skinny will follow me to the grave and back to the life stream. I am thankful for that - he keeps me company.

Can you stop someone before its to late?

I feel lost today....

A close member of my family is fucking up his life and I am trying to stop it. His tossing away his own family for the sake of a drink and is not seeing where its going to lead.

Everyone had herd the same story, something happens in there life, they start drinking, theydrink till they lose everything and once they have hit rock bottom and cant go down any more - Then they start to sort out there life... trouble is sometimes that does not work, They lose there job, there home and there family and they never get it back again. 

I have tried to nip this in the butt and make sure it does not go down that far, to stop it before it happens but I feel like im losing the battle and there is nothing I  can do to stop it! 

I'e spoke with the guys from AA (Alcoholics Anonymous) and they have told me the same as I knew already... That the 1st step is admitting you have a problum, cos it has to come from with-in, no one can tell you, well everyone can tell you but only you can tell yourself that there is an issue.

Where to go from here I dont know but It all starts tomorrow.

Only a little bit?

Bite size brain dump

Some days I sit at my computer and expect to hear a voice from the other side of the room, asking if i would like a tea, or what movie would we like to watch, I wake in the night and miss a hand on my waste. Too look up and see a pretty set of brown eyes looking into mine.

A new life that misses the old one, The fire and feelings... The needs and the wants The love and the return of it. As someone once said... To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides.

Sometimes I really miss my old life but it makes me think what to do with the new one laid before me.

Lindsey Stirling - My Next Gig?

I have posted a blog about Lindsey Stirling before as I kinda fall in love with this girl a few months ago, She is an amazing artist and dam she can play the hell outa that violin!!

She is playing at The O2 Shepherds Bush Empire on the 28th of May and I so badly wanna go. (Thanks Mårk for letting me know) 

You can find more on her on her FaceBook page or twitter...